Wednesday, June 5, 2013
It didn't really work out with the last one. I couldn't really find a spark or anything much between us and that makes me a little sad because she was a really sweet girl and she deserves a lot. I'm not sure whats going to happen with my life anymore but thats ok. I am fine with myself and I am fine staying single for awhile. well at least for the most part I guess because it's always nice to know that someone out there is waiting for you. so until then I'll just keep my head up and live my life as I always have
Monday, April 1, 2013
I don't know yet, but I think something good is just about to happen to me. I met a girl, who's cute funny and smart and stuff. and I think she likes me too because she kinda asked me out and stuff. I wasn't able to go because of a concert but that's a pretty good sign I think. crossing my fingers on this one.
Thursday, February 14, 2013
I'm just basically ready to give up on my love life all together because I guess my love life has given up on me. every time that I have ever tried with a girl it usually seems to fall into a million pieces before anything serious can actually happen. well I guess a better way of putting this would actually be taking a break from trying than actually giving up. but the thing is that I really don't want to just because of the hope and the slightest of possibilities that something might actually work....
Saturday, December 15, 2012
so... I'm not sure how to come at this exactly. everything possible, good and bad, has basically happened. first off, lets start off with the incident. I have been spending a lot of time with the same group as the girl that I like. we usually end up watching a movie then cuddling anyone and everyone that happens to be present at any given time. it's a little weird to think about but for some reason I seem to be okay doing this and I find that a little weird itself. anyway this exact thing happens and I make sure that I end up cuddling with the one I like. I eventually end up spending the night there spooning the one all until the morning. this was the opportunity that I have been waiting for so I took my chance and got a little closer. I eventually gathered my courage and leaned in and kissed her. that was probably what I really needed most at this point in time in my life. this might have been dubbed a bad thing to do though. the reason why it is bad is actually kinda complicated and therefore has put me in a position that I don't know to proceed. mostly because I don't know how I'm suppose to feel. if i knew how i felt then I'd know what I want and then I'd have to figure how to get what I wanted but since I don't know how I feel then a can't do that. I was told that I need not to look into this event in any seriousness but just as pure fun and play. I'm not sure if I want to or even can at times. I'm trying not to also because I was then told later that day that I should not pursue her because it will only lead to pain. that is a good enough warning for most men to walk away but it only puts me in a stand still. I don't know whether or not to keep moving toward her or just to run like I have always known to do. I need to know she feels and what she intends before I even start to make up my mind of any of this.
Sunday, December 9, 2012
Women are going to be the death of me. I'm kinda back on the last girl again. she broke up with her boyfriend and I kinda (hoped) saw this coming. I'm getting closer to her every time we hang out but I'm still uncertain if all of this is just a game or if she actually has some feelings for me. must investigate closer. but even if she doesn't, it's still just nice to have someone there. it gives me some motivation to actually get stuff done in my life because that was the one thing that was missing all of this semester and that has kinda put me in an awful pickle. I'm also not really sure how to keep moving forward with her and that's mostly the reasons why I write in this blog is to just get out my problems and hope for everything to eventually be solved and end up happy. maybe some day that will actually happen but who really knows.