always on my mind

 I haven't stopped thinking about her ever since . even when I'm not thinking about her, Im pretending that I'm teller what I'm thinking instead. i just really want/need to talk to her. problem is that i don't know what to say. worst off is that i have no freakin idea what she would say. if i pour my heart out will i just be shut down and rejected on the spot? or maybe even worse, she'd slowly but surely drift away from me without even saying one word. just like it has always been. i just want to be happy, and all of this is blocking me from being truly at peace with my self or whatever...

bitter sweet symphony

things have kinda slowed down from what they used to be. this is sorta kinda scaring me because the last time something like this happened it all ended in tragedy and all blew up in flames and stuff. but it doesn't matter because this girl is worth it and I'm gonna keep on trying till the bitter end.