these dreams

i havent been able to sleep lately. ive been tossing and turning at night cuz i cant stop thinking of her. she's appearing in my dreams and no matter what happens in it, it keeps me from truly fall asleep. the happy dreams make me sad because i know it will never happen that way and the sad ones make me come back to reality and remember that i dont have her... its freakin 5 in the morning and i still cant sleep :p this kinda really sucks.

mr. blue

so it looks like i'll never be lucky in love. i dont know what it is. they just cant see who i really am and just decide that im not worth it i guess. kind of sux really. like a lot a lot really. the thing is i still cant stop thinking about her. :p just why me?