Monday, November 19, 2012

why does it always rain on me?

well this week has been a really shitty week. everything is falling apart and everyone is canceling on me and now my freakin iPod is now fritz  and is completely busted. I'm not sure how I'm suppose to live. once again I have no one to turn to at this moment but luckily for me I'm going home tomorrow so I'll see my friends and be distracted for a little bit...maybe. but probably the worst that has happened today was when I found out that my crush now has a boyfriend so that just fucking sucks and you know whatever. life sux and then you die :p

Tuesday, November 13, 2012

Roxanne

I am lost and confused. I can now say that I am over the last one even though I don't think I will ever actually be completely over her. But that is not what why I am lost and confused. The stress of life and school isn't helping my problem but it might just be the one thing that is holding me together and telling myself that I can't just lose it and give up on everything. now lets dive into my confusion. I have a new crush (wow what a surprise) and I don't entirely want one right now. especially when it comes to this girl. I don't know how to get me closer because, as I have observed, she isn't the type of girl that would fall for a sweet guy like me but instead she is more driven to hot steamy sex and that is not my style of approaching things. to top everything off, when ever I hang out with her it's with a usual group of people. In this group there is a guy that used to be her make out buddy. there is always tension between them and they are constantly flirting. she says that she is over him and nothing is going to come of it, but I can see that there is still something inside of both of them that can't let the other one go. I honestly want to just give up on this girl and move one, but then I wouldn't know what I would do or where to go...or even I have the capability to let this one go.