always on my mind

 I haven't stopped thinking about her ever since . even when I'm not thinking about her, Im pretending that I'm teller what I'm thinking instead. i just really want/need to talk to her. problem is that i don't know what to say. worst off is that i have no freakin idea what she would say. if i pour my heart out will i just be shut down and rejected on the spot? or maybe even worse, she'd slowly but surely drift away from me without even saying one word. just like it has always been. i just want to be happy, and all of this is blocking me from being truly at peace with my self or whatever...