unbelievable

I've been searching far and wide for something that could match the beauty I see in her. so far I have seen some amazing sight but none of them have even made a dent in the comparison to her. nothing has even come close...not even a little bit.

I Miss You

I thought that by talking to her I'd start missing her less, but honestly it's making me miss her even more than I thought I could. I think its because I'm starting to realize that I'm not gonna be able to see her for at least two months and that is just killing me. I don't know what I'm suppose to do. I just really want to see her face. her smile. and those amazingly blue eyes. help me. :p

happy together

i think im in love. i still wont say it out loud or anything but its true. i cant and wont stop thinking about her, not even for a second. she is so beautiful, wonderful, intelligent, and amazing. and the best part is that she actually likes me. no more being tossed around or having my heart yanked and pulled out of my chest. i am just so freakin happy :)

here comes the sun

i've noticed that most of my creativity comes to me when im down, or even depressed. this is the time when the "real you" comes out. it reaches down into your soul and pulls out all the beauty you have left, cuz if you dont then you sink into a deep despair. so let your true self shine forth and light my world once again.

dont you forget about me

i think this is kinda a wussy fear but i bet its a fear that a lot of people have. this fear is the fear of being forgotten. not having left behind something thing that people would look at and say "hey, that was the making of jake." im afraid i'll never reach that point where i can leave something behind. and mostly i want something that will last the ages. when life as we now it is gone and who ever is left be gaze upon it with all its glory and feel overcome with joy or love or whatever. i want to last. i want to live forever even when im gone and through with this world.