help I'm alive

i am always doubting myself. its kinda weird. i am always think of the worst possible situations that would just destroy me. after awhile i start to convince myself that they are true; and im really afraid that i might be right. i so freakin hope that im wrong. i guess only time will tell....man i hate waiting. :ad

Imagine

tomorrow I'm moving back to college. I really wonder if I'm going to see her tomorrow. but honestly I'm kinda scared, because i don't know what will happen or what i should say. or even if i should just run up to her, embrace her, then never let her go ever again. but who know. only time will tell....I'm still scared tho :s

harder to breath

my job at the island lake summer camp is finally over. but i find it kinda weird because when ever i was with the kids i always felt stressed and stuff. and now that its over and all the kids are gone, im actually starting to miss them. i even cried last night along with all my campers. i will never forget my summer here at island lake. :'(